I Have Faith That...

I have faith that…

Everything will work out the way it's supposed to. I will be able to make it through life with this disease. I will be able to handle what trials are put in my way. I will learn the things I'm supposed to learn from this trial.

Photo 1:  Here we go with another week, and another day of #14on14. #ithinkicanithinkican #justwantsleep #andmoney #andfood #andmorelazytimes #mydailylife

Photo 2:  Will be glad when construction is over here...or when I don't have to come get meds all the time. #budgeclinic #justwantsleep #meds #mydailylife

Photo 3:  Dinner. First time at #fiveguys. To bad I can't fit the burgers in my mouth. #sclerodermaprobs #mydailylife #14on14

The World...

What is one thing that you can’t believe is happening in the world?

 War, anger, hatred, murder, abandonment, drugs, etc. It's sad how bad the world has gotten. I'm grateful to live in Utah, where although I know there is bad stuff happening here, we are still pretty sheltered from them.

Photo: Looks gross, but better. It's healing slowly but surely. #shingles #scleroderma #sclerodermaprobs #mydailylife

Photo 2:  #PrettyLittleLiars while the hubby is at the Priesthood session. #iamlds

Read Your Mind

If you could have read one person’s mind today, who would you choose?

My doctor's. I'm always curios what runs through his mind when I visit. What are his thoughts on the disease? Does he think I'm just being a baby? How much does he really know? 

But at the same time, it's a good thing I can't read minds. Who would want to be able to do that? Information overload for sure. 

Photo: Getting blood drawn. Had to poke both arms to get enough. It was a good appointment with my rheumy. See him again in 3 months.

Embarrassing

What was the last embarrassing thing that happened to you?

{2013}

It would most definitely have to be when I fell leaving work. Luckily only one person saw, but I had him take me inside where the rest of my co-workers saw me crying and bleeding. I know they were totally concerned, but I was still so embarrassed. That, and when I couldn't swallow my pills. Why can't that stuff happen when I'm not around people. I try not to get embarrassed, but I can't help it sometimes. I just don't like asking for help. 

Photo: I took pattern & color combinations to a 'whole notha level' (that's not even including my sweater and scarf that totally don't match). #blameitonthescleroderma #evenifitdoesntmakesense #gottastaywarm

Excess

What do you have too much of?
{2012}

 

Negative energy. Too much anger and resentment towards quite a few people. It's frustrating that I can't seem to let go. Maybe one of these days I can just let go. Its way too much for sure.

 

Photo: Month of Gratitude: Day 13. With all the time I spend crying and complaining about what my body can't do, today I am grateful for what it can. I have a healthy heart with only one valve that has slightly elevated blood pressure (I blame it on work), that still beats and pumps blood throughout my body. My lungs are mostly functioning properly. I can still walk by myself, though I have to be careful not to jump off curbs. I can dress myself mostly by myself, I can do my hair well enough that I don't look like I just rolled out of bed. I can see. I can drive, though I have to take corners a little slower. I can still work at my job. And mostly I'm grateful that my hands aren't totally deformed, so even though it's harder to do what I once could, they still can do what I need them. Lots to be grateful for today.