3 Today

Name the things you've done today.
{2013}

1. Worked my life away...
2. Went to Firehouse Subs for dinner
3. Worked on the Relief Society newsletter

Photo: Oh wait. See that cloud? Just driving through the {neighborhood}. #mydailylife365

Doctor, Doctor

The last doctor's appointment you made was because...
{2013}

 I have mental health issues. Okay, that sounds far worse than it is. Let's try depression, anxiety, etc. I guess when you get diagnosed with a chronic illness, they like to make sure you're okay. Which, I'm not. I struggle some days more than others, but it's okay. It's life. What can we do? I do like the psychologist though. He's been a great help.

Photo: The other night I was looking online for {One} Direction shirts to wear to their concert in about a week and a half (YAY!!) and Greg comes up and tells me I'm not going to buy a shirt. I tell him yes I am because I figure he's just being Greg and hating on 1D, but then I get this in the mail (plus some cute clothes) from @adriennehoge and some girls from her office who are also @onedirection fans! #onedirectionfandomunite! Jk, but I love it and can't wait to wear it 24/7. Oh, and did I mention I'm going to their concert in less than a couple weeks? #excited #mydailyhappy365

Go Time!

Where would you like to go?
{2013} 

Hawaii is number one on my list right now. Then I think it would be Arctic Circle to get another Huckleberry shake. I have high hopes!

Photo: Sometimes, when he is angry at me, the hubs goes and sits in the car...just kidding. I never make him mad. #heistryingtofigureoutwhythecarsucks

Last Learned

What was the most recent thing you learned?
{2013}

This question always gets me. Sure you supposedly learn something new each day, but I don't know. Maybe I'm still slowly learning patience, with my job, with my calling, with life in general. I don't know, is that a totally lame answer? I don't know.

I do learn new things at work every now and then. That always makes for some fun, frustrating times.

Photo: At least it's warm enough for me to "stretch" outside. And by {stretch} I mean put one foot up on the step and the other stays down. That's about all the stretching I can do without possibly falling over. #iamawuss #mydailylife365

To Ask

What are you questioning?

{2013}

Whether the amount of effort I put into my job is really worth it. Of course it's not in me to not work hard, but I wonder if my hard work would be more beneficial to me elsewhere. Of course when I do question it I get the same answers I've been getting for years. Oh well. I love my job, there just comes a time when you have to ask, "What's the point?"

Photo: Greg's, "{hurry} up, and stop taking pictures," face. #helovesme #mydailylife365

Decision Making

What decisions do you have to make that you wish you didn't?

{2013}

 

I have to decide whether I want to stay on the  comfortable train with the nice cushy seats that doesn't go anywhere, or the old rickety, not so comfortable train headed to somewhere awesome. Right now train #1 is winning. It's hard to leave your comfort zone, but if it's taking you no where, then what's the point? (See I do listen to my 'therapist'b sometimes.)

Photo: And to celebrate what I'm calling the {first} of fall....huckleberry shakes!

#theyarethebest #arcticcircle #mydailylife365

Thankful

What are you thankful for?

{2012}

 

I'm grateful for people who are willing to spend a lot of years going to school to specialize in various health fields.

 

People who are willing to put in a good word out help me get into different doctors.

 

People who are genuinely concerned about me.

 

A great hubby who is willing to go to my doctor appointments with me... who will let me cry, but only for a minute before cracking some joke to get me laughing... who will slow down for me, will help me stand up, will help me in and out of the tub, will help me with my hair out get dressed.

 

My health... I'm still alive and I can go about my daily activities, with only a few minor troubles.

 

Photo: met with the rheumatologist today. More testing in my future. Its okay. As long as I can get better.

 

Today I'm Feeling

Today I'm feeling...

{2012}

 

Cold - the heater at the church wasn't working, so despite being dressed up warm, it was super cold.

 

Tired - I love lazy Sundays where I really don't have to do anything, but I sure am tired.

Good - as good as can be I guess. There's a lot I can't control so I just have to keep going.

Photo: Gold...en Sunday drive up Logan canyon.

 

Breaking the Law

Have you ever broken the law? How so?

 

Not recently. Unless you count accidentally. I really try not to speed, but once in a while I might. But I really REALLY try to obey the laws of the land... especially speeding. My fear of a ticket outweighs my need to get somewhere a few minutes faster.

 

Photo: 10 O'clock... and I'm about to dig into this book for the second time in two days. I absolutely love it.

 

I'm Different

What is one thing that makes you different?

{2012}

 

Right now I can only think of physically different. By that I mean this whole health thing has got my body changing and me looking different. I think the biggest thing that makes me different is my face. The skin tightening is really starting to take its toll. I don't really know how to explain it and I don't know that this actually answers the question, but it's all I can think of. I just hope that is not permanent and I can get my face back. :)

 

Photo: love curling up with my blanket on the couch. Thank goodness it's Friday.

 

Daydream

Close your eyes and daydream for a moment. What did you imagine?

{2012}

 

I was feeling great. And was enjoying a nice back massage. On the beach. Greg next to me. It was lovely.

 

Photo: Curve. Love when it rains and the windshield wiper leaves this.

 

Best News Ever

What is the best news you've heard in the last week?

{2012}

 

What about the best news I've seen? In that Adam Levine from The Voice looks mighty food with facial hair. Just saying....

 

Photo: H is for...hungry! For once I actually wanted something specific. A total rarity lately.

Morning Rituals

Today marks 1 year since I started doing daily blog. What?!? Crazy right? The purpose is to see how different things are from year to year so I'll be releasing the same prompts. Crazy.

 

List your morning rituals.

{2012 Daily Blog}

 

7:05 alarm goes off (sounds like 'Little Things' by 1D). Hit snooze.

 

7:10 'Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me'... hit snooze

 

7:15 'but bear this in mind it was meant to be'... snooze

 

7:20 listen a little longer. Drag myself out of bed.

 

7:30 shower

 

7:45 get dressed enough so Greg can put on my shoes before he leaves

 

8:00 drop Greg off

 

8:05 eat breakfast

 

8:20 attempt to do my hair, and makeup, and finish getting dressed

 

8:45 rush out the door so I'm not too late

 

I need more time.

 

Photo: Space... or something like that. It's kind of like space right?

 

Drove Me Crazy

Name one thing that drive you crazy today.

So I am a teller at a credit union, and I'd say I really love my job 90% of the time. Well they have decided that it would be a brilliant idea to turn us into 'Member Service Representatives' or MSR's. What that means is instead of just being a teller, we now get to process loans as well... among other things. Cool right? Not cool. Well, okay, it's not horrible, but they are going about it the wrong way. They are not prepared to properly train us, and I feel like there is a bit of confusion amongst the CU.

There are three levels of MSR. Today we found out what levels we are. I am a level 2. I was fine with it until my manager kept talking. I know he was just trying to make it sound like level 2 was great and blah blah blah, but then he told me where the other tellers are and what they based the levelling on. One of the factors is 'seniority' which is a term I've come to hate. At this point I feel like our levels of knowledge are pretty similar, yet because I've been here less I'm 'ranked' lower. It absolutely drives me crazy. Especially when I do more work than those with this 'seniority'. So frustrating.

But I'll just keep my mouth shut since when I've voiced my feelings in the past it made no difference. Apparently you have to be at the job for a long time in order to gain respect.

Photo: I finally went in to get my eyes checked. First time in over 3 years, so it was much needed. Saying goodbye to these cute glasses. Got me some new ones.

On My Mind

What is one thing on your mind that you're not quite ready to talk about?

Interesting question. If I didn't want to talk about it, then I wouldn't bring it up... right? I think one thing that is difficult for me to talk about is my health. I promise one of these days I'll write about it, because I think it'll be important to document my days, but right now I don't really want to. I don't really like to talk about it because, A: I don't even know exactly what's going on, B: I don't want people to worry, C: I don't want people to feel bad/sorry for me, and D: I don't want to be a burden on anyone.

It could be healthy to talk about it. Just not now.

Photo: Made me happy... these yummy cookies made me happy, and I only had two!

Under Pressure

What pressure did you feel today?

Umm... considering today is Saturday...I didn't feel much. We'll unless you count when Greg pressured me to make a decision on whether I wanted to get One Direction cups from Wal Mart. Guess what I chose...

Photo: My new cups.

Last Gift

What is the last gift you've received?

Well, I had a nice post written up, but it didn't save... so that's too bad, but I think the last gift I received was a bag of chocolates from the Young Women after I was released. It is crazy to think I was in the YW program for about five years. It was a great calling, and I really miss setting the girls all the time, but I did need a change, and I think it came when I needed it. I still am not sure what they were thinking putting me in Relief Society, but right now it's where I need to be.

Photo: What is this? This is my reward for not killing my coworkers. You can also see the purple-ness of my fingers and the lines from my gloves that I always wear.

First Thing

What is the first thing you did this morning? Was it part of your routine?

 

I listened to a bit of "Little Things" by One Direction before hitting the snooze button, waiting five minutes and repeating. Yes it's part of my routine. Every. Single. Day. No wonder I'm always late to work.

 

Photo: In the morning...I always look this lovely.

Old

How old do you feel?

 

I feel like a freakin 87 year old if you want to know the truth. I hobble around when I walk, I have a hard time going up and down stairs, standing up, and I am slower than your average grandparent. It's a bit rough. But I am only 27. Hopefully by the time I'm 28 I'll only feel 35.

 

Photo: When I walked into work, these critters were scattered all over my desk. That's what we do with the toys that get left at the credit union. And can we take a minute to notice how creepy the doll is?

Before I Fall Asleep

What do you think about before you fall asleep?

 

It's either how much I don't want to go to work, or sometimes I think about Candy Crush (which makes for some crazy annoying dreams), or about the book I'm reading. Sometimes I think about how tired I am. It's tough to say. It all depends on my day.

 

Photo: In front of me. My blessed (pronounced bless-ed) computer. Kinda gives me a head ache. This is in front of me 5 days a week. Love it.